My high school reunion is this weekend. I decided to go only because my girlfriends and I made the pack that if one goes we all go. I totally wish I would have backed out of that.
Five years ago I said I would only go if I was married to a hottie with a great job(me not him). I have neither of those things. I don't even have A guy, which on a side note I realized the other day that there is pretty much NO way that I will be getting married before I am 30, kinda makes me sad, but oh well.
So no guy and barely employeed. And I get to spend my Saturday night hanging out with a bunch of people I didn't really care for 10 years ago.
I had a minor freak out yesterday while trying to decide what to wear and then an even bigger one last night, when thinking about how I went to high school with some pretty big jerks. There were some pretty decent people too, but I couldn't stop thinking about those kids that spent their high school career being mean to others. Now that I have a bit more rational head then I did last night I can think about what a waste it was of their high school years.
But I still wonder and worry about what it will be like to interact with all of these people again.
I guess I will say an extra prayer before I head out on Saturday and try and forget about the past and just have fun with my friends.
Still Stressed Though
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Food
Those of you that know me know that food is a pretty major part of my life, like in the "how the heck is that girl not 1000 pounds" sorta way.
The other day after eating at Red Mango and being disappointed because it was definetly no YogurtLand, I started to think about my life and eating habits and how when I lived in California there was little to no foods that I missed in the Midwest. There was the occasional desire for Dorthy Lynche (sp?) dressing and in the summer sweet corn but that was really about it.
Now that I have been back in the midwest for almost a year I miss A LOT of resturants from CA. Yogurtland is a constent miss, especially in the warm summer months. When I went to Red Mango the other night I was kinda disappointed cuz they just don't have any many flavors and all of theirs were fruity, not sweet and fun like YogurtLand (oh rootbeer you were pretty awesome)
There is also In N Out Burger which is another constent miss. My mouth is currently watering thinking about those burgers and fries. I'm not going to lie I usually felt sick if I went Animal style on both the burger and the fries, but it was delicious and worth it every time.
Then there is El Pollo Loco and any place where I can get a decent fish taco. That is what I truly miss the most, fish tacos.
I went to a so called 'Mexican" resturant the other day for lunch and decided to order their fish tacos to try them out and it was kinda like eating a fish stick in a tortilla shell with some lettuce and tomatoes. I proceeded to try and cover it with several different things to help it out but nothing worked. It still makes me sad to think about it.
So even though I love my family and am happy to finally be employeed after almost a year of unemployement, I would totally move back to Cali just for the food.
The other day after eating at Red Mango and being disappointed because it was definetly no YogurtLand, I started to think about my life and eating habits and how when I lived in California there was little to no foods that I missed in the Midwest. There was the occasional desire for Dorthy Lynche (sp?) dressing and in the summer sweet corn but that was really about it.
Now that I have been back in the midwest for almost a year I miss A LOT of resturants from CA. Yogurtland is a constent miss, especially in the warm summer months. When I went to Red Mango the other night I was kinda disappointed cuz they just don't have any many flavors and all of theirs were fruity, not sweet and fun like YogurtLand (oh rootbeer you were pretty awesome)
There is also In N Out Burger which is another constent miss. My mouth is currently watering thinking about those burgers and fries. I'm not going to lie I usually felt sick if I went Animal style on both the burger and the fries, but it was delicious and worth it every time.
Then there is El Pollo Loco and any place where I can get a decent fish taco. That is what I truly miss the most, fish tacos.
I went to a so called 'Mexican" resturant the other day for lunch and decided to order their fish tacos to try them out and it was kinda like eating a fish stick in a tortilla shell with some lettuce and tomatoes. I proceeded to try and cover it with several different things to help it out but nothing worked. It still makes me sad to think about it.
So even though I love my family and am happy to finally be employeed after almost a year of unemployement, I would totally move back to Cali just for the food.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Random Blabber
As I was getting ready this morning trying to think of what I wanted to do to fill my day (i decided on sitting at Panera and applying for jobs, tomorrow I am going to do laundry and run to the bank) since I don't have to work til Friday and need to find a way to fill my days. I thought about how I have all this time on my hands but not a whole lot to do with it. I could travel and go visit people I love and haven't seen in a long time, but I can't really afford to. Which lead to me thinking about how we work so hard so we can afford to do the things we need and to do the things we want, but then once we have money to do so we don't have the time because we are busy working. I hate that thought and I really dislike money and all that comes with it, and would like to find a happy balance of being able to afford to pay the bills and having time on my hands to spend with the people I love.
I have been persuing this guy at work recently and am not sure how I feel about it all now. I feel wierd going after him because I don't know how he feels about Jesus, because I just don't really know anything about him. Except he is cute and has a chin dimple. And so I feel like I should just drop it because he could not love Jesus. But then at the same time I feel like I should just keep on this path because how will I learn how he feels about Jesus if I don't.
But I have expressed my interest in him, I have told others and others have told him. And I finally took the step and facebook friended him, with a cute little message, he accepted my request but sent no message back.
I want to be pursued. I do not want to have to make all the moves.
Which brings me to another thought, how to Christian men feel about being pursued by Christian women? I have no clue where I got this thought but I feel like it is un Christian for the girl to go after the guy. Seriously where did that thought come from? Maybe a part of it has to do with the man being the head of the household. It just leaves all of these feelings of uncertainity and doubt and take away from me as the strong powerful woman I am, and makes in harder for me to stand out and be me when I meet guys.
It is yucky and gross and I just try and remember how God thinks I am awesome and that is all that matters.
I have been persuing this guy at work recently and am not sure how I feel about it all now. I feel wierd going after him because I don't know how he feels about Jesus, because I just don't really know anything about him. Except he is cute and has a chin dimple. And so I feel like I should just drop it because he could not love Jesus. But then at the same time I feel like I should just keep on this path because how will I learn how he feels about Jesus if I don't.
But I have expressed my interest in him, I have told others and others have told him. And I finally took the step and facebook friended him, with a cute little message, he accepted my request but sent no message back.
I want to be pursued. I do not want to have to make all the moves.
Which brings me to another thought, how to Christian men feel about being pursued by Christian women? I have no clue where I got this thought but I feel like it is un Christian for the girl to go after the guy. Seriously where did that thought come from? Maybe a part of it has to do with the man being the head of the household. It just leaves all of these feelings of uncertainity and doubt and take away from me as the strong powerful woman I am, and makes in harder for me to stand out and be me when I meet guys.
It is yucky and gross and I just try and remember how God thinks I am awesome and that is all that matters.
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