Sunday, January 10, 2016

The Inbetween

I feel stuck in the middle, in the land of no where, the land of the unknown.
In the middle of a pretty big change at work, where my constant answer to any question asked is "I don't know yet"
In the process of leaving the house I have shared with friends for the last 3 years, into a new house with a new friend.
In between groups of friends, not quite connected in either place.
Stuck in between Gen X and Millennials. 

The land of in between, the land of the unknown, the land of not quite belonging. 

It's a horrible and scary place. One filled with loneliness and tears. One where the uncertainty of it all could sweep me away at a moments notice. 

I feel like I could easily slip away into this land of in between. Slip into the abis of nothingness. Curl up in a ball, crawl to the inside, never leave.
It's like being in the middle of a swimming pool, not sure which side to swim to, and instead just drowning to the bottom.