My brain is overwhelming with thoughts (and brain juice. what?!) and I am not sure I will get anything out, but decided I should write bc that is what I started this blog for right? to figure stuff out, to let it be known to the world that I don't know.

I have yet again reached the point in my career search where the thought goes through my head that I will never have a job, that no one will ever hire me, and I will yet again be bouncing from couch to couch. I do have a part time job which is good for the most part but its no full time job and it won't pay the bills or have health insurance or keep me busy for 40 hours out of the week.

My motivation factor has been pretty low lately most due to the I am not good enough feeling flowing through my vains.
And all I can think about at this very moment is how my finger nails are long enough that typing is uncomfortable and that my hands need lotion. Not about how I have a half written cover letter that I need to get submitted or that I should be looking at all the jobs that are out there.

I wonder if I worked in a cardboard box with no distractions if I would get stuff done. Hmmmm thoughts.